May 16, 2006

There's a good time moon on the rise tonight I can hear the call of the city lights There's a time to work,and a time to play I've worked all I'm gonna work today Ain't no stopping me now It's my night to howl

~~Lorrie Morgan

Changing positions - why the negatory view that changing is a sign of weakness and moral vacuity? Loyalty is a praised virtue, longevity = applause. Making a change as viewed as a symptom of ADHD, no matter what level of longevity you've reached, misses the point of moving on. It's sad to disappoint those that depend on you when you make the move, but reinvigorating your mo-jo can be life-saving. It's all about carrying on, rebuilding, making a reality where the fit is perfect and the application of life's rules happens with a little daily affection added for desert dessert. Position change is a frequency gauge revealing how centered you are, how agile and how much hurt is going on. Being exposed to someone who enjoys hurting people 'til they cry can make you cry. The absurdity. Now's the point where I bring up the chorus to Ain't No Stopping Me Now, for consideration as your farewell number. Morning jaunts ending up on the swing, nice 'n easy on the weekends and your last flight from the cuckoos' nest only fingers away from happening - all too good to be true. The sunrise can be more beautiful than the nightfall when we're out in it.

May 15, 2006

We forget all too soon the things we thought we could never forget. ~~Joan Didion

The difference between hope and a plan is that hope appears twice, at the beginning and at the end of the plan that you've employed to make happen what you've hoped for. One element in the plan is to recognize that jealousy is a reasonable response to interaction with potential contact with ladies capable of enticing. The forgotten card this morning could have been taken as a bad omen, instead, just a delay. The double ride meant higher heart rates at the outset of the warm-up and when the cruncher was under the tube showing dialogue between an ebony wonder woman celebrity and a gay man, I thought I read" "like when you were next to me in bed......." and I pictured her man later saying "what's up?" when encountered and I realized if he were me and left explaining "hey, she's my sexual opposite, meaning no taste for my kinda lovin' " would that look like a Ferris Bueller? In my past, I fought to justify legitimacy of female friends, now there's no need. But it does make my answer be "the gay guy" to the question of "what would make her more jealous, meeting up with you in conversation with a gay guy or any non-famiglia woman?" If I'm wrong, doesn't matter - not an issue now. Think I'll go lower my heart rate.

May 12, 2006

Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it's a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from. ~~Al Franken

When things are designed where only the people who KNOW understand how things work, you have to know. The idea of a smart deputy helps but doesn't replace the need to know yourself. But this is more accomodating than the opposite - things that are designed so EVERYONE understands them, then they get so swamped with litigation-proof rules as the prevailing culture, that the ones to whom the dumbed-down designs were made ignore them anyway. When you live where law rules, know the law. OK, sound like you do, anyway. The laws of love are simple and persuasive - there's one, find her. Is she Aphrodite? Shirley? Shirlodite? The one and only correct answer is she's her. Sweet as a mother's love. Pleasing by staying true to her beliefs. The one about love your man is stunning and the parts that recreate desert yoots, priceless.

May 9, 2006

Hollywood is where you get up at noon, read the funnies, and if the sun's not out, you go to dirty movies until cocktail time. ~~Paul Lynde

Pledging impartiality is like promising fidelty, theory being you can control you but you can't control outside forces from taking over you. We have to act as impartial when really we'd like our preferences to determine outcomes. We can act, too, about being faithful but if it's just a promise, it's not actual and actual is what counts. Fighting to maintain fidelity could be exasperating, so not worrying about it saves so much energy. I was never in competition with the other man so the knowledge he's going away early next year is no less a relief. She stays so approachable whenever it's just us. Is it just an illusion that you'll never see me and the other man in the same room at the same time again? Or is it true even though I worked for a short spell at the other man? She is my other woman, too, which is convenient in making fantasies become real. Impartiality isn't real but fidelty is. The duration FOREVER really is.

May 9, 2006

When you get to the place when there's no place to go means you got all day 'cause you never missed a job and because of that, you got all day to do what the day gives. Now and forever. Maybe it's because the place where that happens is here and now. Got no place to go because yesterday took care of place ya gotta go, not that it's a bad thing. But a Pearl Bailey morning with both hope and a plan opens the outside with an invitation that saturates every spectrum. I'm there...

May 8, 2006

I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainty that just to be alive is a grand thing. ~~Agatha Christie

I wonder if OCD is just the result of someone coming to a crossroad and the lesson learned was "always listen to the decider in your head", no exceptions. It's based on trust of that decision, one that YOU made using all your equipment (basic and optional). And if you have to use an interpreter for each of the zones you occupy on a regular basis, too much effort wasted. Going along saves all that Now time for actual together time. The alon time is for taking care of things to make together time what it is. But during together time (both actual and spiritual) the decider never says to disable your override, so if you decide to abort, hit the brakes. I do and move to the zone which has the most pleasant sounds and smells at that moment (from proven list). Range of motion and clarity take the stage. A little ceramic outlining of the solar plexus may get the wagon train moving - gym, Sammies, cooking - too little sleep.

May 5, 2006

Humor is imperative, more important than food. ~~Doris Roberts

A Save to Disk moment last night getting blown away by her recap of her nailed Rosemary reception yesterday. Watching so many movies makes you zoom inside performances that are fresh, persuasive and delivered in realism. Getting this far took some innovation and dedication and there's no better way to hear that to get the full effect than to hear her speak it . Confidence baked right on the spot via direct conversation with the only decider that counts over there. Clear and conclusive remarks made with intent are as good as they get, satisfying all by themselves. Even if nothing changes, the confidence in getting them out in the most romantic surrounding, then in the most romantic place recapping them for me is grander than anything I've notched here. She is an impresario and I get to be there for the BEST performances.

May 4, 2005

The trouble with America isn't that the poetry of life has turned to prose, but that it has turned to advertising copy. ~~Louis Kronenberger

Staying power used to have a different meaning. It used to be that staying power meant quality, as in 'built to last a lifetime'. Longevity meant praise, long lasting meant good. Now staying power usually can go right to the image of being known for what you do - the athletic/entertainer model, 15 minutes of fame, paparazzi. Screw the mahogany couch that will never fall apart - we get stuff knowing we'll get tired of it before it wears out. Staying power as in length of fame = length of extravagant living. In Stage Now of life, staying power means your main interests remain your main ones longer than in former years. Not so much du jour anymore, more what worked this time last year still works. Oh, the names have changed (2Ps, PPCC, BBC, Will Harper....) but the live life simple, live love endlessly has soared throughout every phase so far. Our hands are insured by Lloyd's of London. The staying power of love is forever when you're matched at the soul. A Rosemary Thyme.

May 3, 2006

May2, 2006

Well, okay, I concede that unless you can *recognize* a box, it's hard to tell whether you're in one or outside one -- and that sometimes In The Box is the right place to be, especially for novice thinkers who need reassuring limits. But then, the *real* novices can't think in 3-D yet, so they're simply left On Square One; if they're narrow-minded to boot, then all they know how to do is Toe The Line -- and if their thinking hardly goes anywhere in the first place, at least they have no trouble Getting To The Point. ~~whatsbruin@halfbake Sep 05 2001

Today's challenge is to find enough release of the non-linear stuff outside to make these forays here not so much. Since the preferred place for the off-line venue is outside, it is there I am

April 28, 2006

The reason people blame things on the previous generations is that there's only one other choice. ~~Doug Larson

Talking the walk lets you walk the walk AND walk the talk. You get another chance to feel the wonderment some more just talking about it. But then the phone rings and you're deep down glad that the walk included what it did - no thinking you must choose the right emotion, your response IS the right emotion if there is such a thing. You express your love to someone who knows your love, expressed in your words of the present in the rapture of today and she returns the affirmation. A timely reconnection. My QC of my communication with her about where she planted the sunflower seeds led me to worst case that I'm watering and babying weeds that I thought were sunflower babies. That let cord metaphor used in the communication QC would pertain if we took the same words from a single person totally different. If it falls on your side, you're right. We don't do "listen to me so you'll know what's right", we do "listen to each other" instead. So who's right is about equal, and I learn so much from her. And those hands. The world has been trying since Fred Flintstone died to come up with an even better system where more than just some people escape poverty. I'm walkin', yes, indeed.

April 27, 2006

When I was a child, my mother said to me, 'If you become a soldier, you will become a general. If you become a monk, then you will end up as Pope.' Instead, I became a painter, and wound up as Picasso. ~~Pablo Picasso

Those sanguine signs, a harvest of optimism.
Power of the 2Ps, add some added mobility and the cherry on top is fellow sufferers shedding the undesired, united by mission.
An understandable desire to cross the finish line like a torch carrier is a given and melodramatic
Maybe because we'll encounter a friendly from inside the circle around town, a possibility I skirted by landing over the rainbow
My respect for that has to add to yours to make a decent One - the minimum needed for the high road to the line
Then the silence broken by a songbird is no longer just a weekend or weeknites thing
It joins with the other stimulators to become an anthem for achievement, a lie down without a row, as in trowel
an escape to the glory of a sanctum where excitement thrives without the price of mass exposure
you made your own bed, now lie in it never sounded so sweet as when it's said from high thread count sheets, from lips attached to the person devoted to the life therein who by the way happens to be a soldier in the saga of storybook sentiments....
If the answer to "Name the BEST lovin' ever in your life" is from someone other than who you just had your last lovin' with, then maybe you're with the wrong person. The only lovin' that counts is the lovin' you get today.

April 26, 2006

When your work speaks for itself, dont interrupt. ~~Henry J. Kaiser

There's a difference between bitchy and chippy. Chippy is reserved for acceptable venting when aggravated alot, comes with a large, friendly vent. Conversational venting is preferred but we accept Indignation, Persecution and even STFU cards. Buy one, get one free if used in a conversational sitting, either outside or on the couch (wine optional). The stilled warrior in all of us really, really prefers to remain stilled. Plus the awareness of the power of deliciousness makes vents leading to O much more lasting than rants. Easy to say when you're venting just with the eyes solely because you've been given the second chance. That and the power of deliciousness. The lesson found hidden in every leaf and rock. The taste. Makes you eligible for the grand drawing at the end of the commerce line (hint: there's only one ticket and it's YOURS). The grand prize is getting to pick your own stimulation in place of the shallow imposed imitations at that other place. That and the power of deliciousness.

April 25, 2006

Fortitude is the guard and support of the other virtues. ~~John Locke

The nobilty of the warrior
The nobility of the canary in the mine?
The sacrifice of the canary in the mine
Protecting the kingdom
The kingdom where good is proclaimed
The kingdom where crazy shit happens
Ergo, Protecting is noble, it exalts your character
What if you decide to not become a warrior?
What are other ways of the noble?
Loyal to the cause of love and romance
That way can lead to broken heart
Better than a bullet in the heart
The finish line has built-in reward
The ability to discern the stimulators
Willing and able to be there for each other
When the moment of meeting occurred
Devoted to being there for the rest of time
Using that time like a sculptor
Taking away the parts that don't fit the image
Working only on things that cultivate love and romance
Blurring the things that ache
Elevating the things that lead to O
Tough life but for the open channels
Places to leave traces of the sarcastic tough
But fearless of taking us to higher elevations
Just because they're there

April 24, 2006

Things will not be necessarily continuous. The fact that they are something other than perfectly continuous Ought not to be characterized as a pause. There will be some things that people will see. There will be some things that people won't see. And life goes on. ~~Donald Rumsfeld

He's got the whole world in His hands - great choice of words for accenting the fingers & palms. It's in her touch. It's all part of being in the loop with her. Nice name for perpetual penchant for beautyrest moments. Loop - as in loop-de loop, sometimes you're upside-down going forward then you circle back up with a smile again. Got a deferred P goin' on and got a strong draw towards getting out the story. Given those two gottas, off to the story..........

April 22, 2006

Staying with this format to see if content maintains its stellar readability. The sentiment of slaying the dragon which is killing you applies in kind to getting it right. You never stop having to get it right if that means right attention, right outcomes, right blend of options when refreshing, right timing, right spot on the gangplank to stop.........end list. The big one, the one to get right in this lesson is getting the right mate. The ensuing rights thusly come out in a duet of one voice when chasing the same stars. No more dreams of where you could be, just endless pleasures in an endless line of alternates. They keep the tipping points way outside the gates. The sounds of Breakfast on Pluto blend with Sergio Mendes, preludes to the peeking sun. The reminiscing fails to deliver longing for the days of Rio, that would be a backstep to the potency of the 2Ps. Farewell to transiency. Fade to Poinciana.

April 20, 2006

Charlie: And I'd really like to kiss you, but that's not a good idea, because then we'd start kissing on the couch, and then we'd start kissing on the bed, and I don't wanna rush into spending the night together. Harriet: I'd love to spend the night together. Charlie: I have no problem with that!~~Mike Myers as Charlie Mackenzie

April 19. 2006

Who ran to help me when I fell, And would some pretty story tell, Or kiss the place to make it well? My Mother. ~~Anon.

The capture of Palm Springs and now Lip Balm is probably a good thing. This time I tried Lip first and now this. To get today's meaning, congratulatory admins, warm sun, 2Ps still aiding the cause. So one up finds us fashioning another glimpse - this time with collateral damage:

April 18, 2006

Every moment of one's existence one is growing into more or retreating into less. One is always living a little more or dying a little bit.

~~Norman Mailer

Eliminating the craptacular is more futile than getting ass out of life. Ass as in smells like not piece of. Reduction makes easier path towards achievement, so let's go for reduce instead of eliminate. Reduce exposure for one. Reduce diversions even better. It always comes back to getting the most time devoted to consuming beauty. The good stuff. Sanguine signs of storybook sentiments. So the story about the trip to Palm Springs:

Things were warming up in the love nest but not the good kind. Piece of mind dictated an excursion to attend a much postponed tennis camp. After making arrangements, we parted in the parking lot and I and Not My Father's Oldsmobile headed to Bob Hope's playground. The mood was somber but remarkably clear headed. That was until the Moody Blues came on "makes me want to cry,cry,cry..." and I did - so much that I had to pull off the Interstate to regain my driving vision. Wished I could be in your heart To be one with your love Wished I could be in your eyes Looking back there you were, and here we are. Several hours later found me scoping out the Four-star resort just north of Rancho Mirage. Then I sought and found a Motel 6 just 10 minutes down the connecting highway where I called her from my room that first night. The necessity for the getaway was stressed. I ate my first dinner away from us at a Carl's Jr. next to the motel. I somehow slept through the night with the aid of copious malt liquors (swear). The next morning I got to the tennis courts before anyone was there to open it up. I stared at the mountains which were darker and maybe taller than the one's we looked at every night on the terrace as the sun went down. I was going to be OK with this temporary arrangement and maybe even get better at tennis at the same time. The sign-up guy was friendly, considering he probably expected to get coffee before checking in the guy from Vegas. We walked around the facilities, getting primed for where the clinic would start and where open courts with optional ball machine could be used on off hours. The clinic was more than an hour away so I checked out the Westin for something to fill my stomach.The splendor of the place explained the $200+ a night rate, hence the Motel 6 where the weekly rate was $320. The staff at tennis were competent and the clinic consisted of two couples and some guys and gals, ages 30s thru 50s, guess. The drills were helpful in the basics and one of the instructors paired me with another guy to hit with him. I got to meet a guy from New Zealand and his babe, a 20s aerobics instructor. His tennis level was the best of the group and he explained his technique which started with picking the racket up from the ground and keeping that grip, hitting the ball from the knees up and exaggeratedly across the body to follow-through. The drive back to Thousand Palms where the motel was situated found me concentrating on the phone call to her which would highlight the day. More malt liquor, more Carl's Jr. and another night with broken sleep following a long conversation, filling me in on her dealings with the source of my absence in town this week. The morning greeted this transplant with morning showers which eventually cancelled the clinic for the day. The Auchland guy suggested drinks at the bar in town he and Celeste Spandex went to the night before. We ended up trading stories and I had the lady making Ah sounds at the part of the story where I get to the apartment for the first time. Auchland guy says in a time, I'll be getting tired of her and moving to the next. I wanted to let him know why that will never happen but left it at that. Another long phone conversation from my bed that night and another day to repeat the routine. Funny thing, no Auchland guy and mate - they were the 1st scammers the tennis guy ever experienced - a phony credit card. Oh well, the drills were accelerated and this time one of the single gals asked if I'd like a match with her after the clinic. We hit until the sun started to set and she won the match. We, too talked about my "situation" and parted after I gave her some places to eat and that I'd passed on getting a bite together. This time when I get back to my room, I thought of the call I had on the way out west with my sister, in which she asked what if I was asked to leave and I lost it in the middle of my conversation with her. She said "better come home - right now" and I did. Looking back, you were there and here we are.... Time for pause.

April 17, 2006

There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it. ~~Edith Wharton

No matter how bad you are, you'd be the GOOD part of somebody else's family. Plus 1 = the Immaculate Pairing. The face of Nature is only a fraction of the beauty made by her, the high priestess of ribald ha-ha's. The view from the closet door side is the most beautiful thing I ever saw. Twice reflected, it is Mona squared in innate stuniness (eat your heart out Colbert..). Had my own stigmata this morning...OK, it was just a st, since the other 4 never appeared to form the igmata. Actually doing some aggressive cleaning caused a scratch but the link to yesterday appeared thru the weeping form of the acacia., a day blessed with the resonant tones of getting off. Love sweeter than pecan crostata. Beauty tribulating all opposite forces, nurturing matertionly (that's 2, Stephen..). Happiness can buy you more money and I got it GOOD and that ain't bad.

April 13, 2006

Science fiction is not predictive; it is descriptive. Prediction is the business of prophets, clairvoyants, and futurologists. It is not the business of novelists. A novelist's business is lying. Open your eyes; listen, listen. That is what the novelists say. But they don't tell you what you will see and hear. All they can tell you is what they have seen and heard, in their time in this world, a third of it spent in sleep and dreaming, another third of it spent in telling lies. ~~Ursula K. LeGuin

The steep climb to where you can steep by the jets with her was steep. It damaged parts required to make it to 150, thanks to my previous disregard for perpetuity. But the parts that made it thru unscalloped offer some fine steeping sessions where our deliverance still routinely creates magic. Is that all there is? Is there anything else worthwhile including? All the time is in full use as au paire for the solitary soul, but attention is fixed on conventional communication as well. The antidote to Been Dones featuring "are we having fun yet?s" is ever-changing delivery methods for activating the nasty, something that comes pure natural for the lucky ones. Extended intervals - thank you, tradition - multiply the possibilities - thank you, downsizing.

April 12, 2006

Write verse, not poetry. The public wants verse. If you have a talent for poetry, then don't by any means mother it, but try your hand at verse. ~~Robert W. Service

Doing what it takes to get the desired results is recognizing the ones that are working. Tracing how they got there may get you insight on what it takes, but more importantly, you get to be able to know what you really want. The rough part comes when you decline to use what works, simply because it is abhorrent to you. The trick is to come up with what works for you and gets the desired results. Doin' it with grace. Doin' it your way, spared from things from the past that anchor you from moving on. Doing like a dullard if that works for you. Using the experience of frequently being around people smarter than you to avoid any semblance of intimidation knowing that. Doing it with the comfort of knowing your family is dealing with their personal adversities using actual experiences that induced good results, too. The words of the prophets are written in HTML, glauming at them works. The dream was Elkton based (flipped B210, trashed then praised for appraisal) - the best possibilty so far that it's the ground zero for the association to the trauma. I'm getting closer to extinguishing it. I'm sufficiently seasoned to direct the mission with my back covered by her. Long live 2Ps.

April 11, 2006

We live in a moment of history where change is so speeded up that we begin to see the present only when it is already disappearing. ~~R. D. Laing

Making the grade unafraid, then taking that triumph across the soul. Much focus was on the differences among: afraid, worried, depressed...............end list. They're not all one thing, but conquering the big one that's killing you makes them all go away for good. Provided, of course, you're with the person who thinks as highly of you as you worship her and you're in it for the duration. Life as a journey, gee, who thought of that? But like modern travel, you bring so much along with you that sorting out the good stuff should take the lifetime. The more hands-on time with the good stuff, the less time to worry about the dust in all our corners. I was full of fear and now there's none - I must find the way to quell hers. Sanguine signs of our storybook sentiments must remain the dominant passion and both of us will make that happen. Screw the effete label - it's really good to be here.

April 10, 2006

Perhaps our supercilious disgust with existence is a cover for a secret disgust with ourselves; we have botched and bungled our lives, and we cast the blame upon the "environment" or the "world," which have no tongues to utter a defense. The mature man accepts the natural limitations of life; he does not expect Providence to be prejudiced in his favor; he does not ask for loaded dice to play the game of life. He knows, with Carlyle, that there is no sense in vilifying the sun because it will not light our cigars. And perhaps, if we are clever enough to help it, the sun will even do that; and this vast neutral cosmos may turn out to be a pleasant place enough if we bring a little sunshine of our own to help it out. In truth, the world is neither with us or against us; it is but raw material in our hands, and can be heaven or hell according to what we are. ~~Will Durant

Are eras just determinations of the highest forms being recorded? Or the lowest? When the animals were worshipped, era of stupidity? Or wisdom? Going with the most beauty leaves a distaste for the fugly that gets your attention. Form of denial? Just real good filtering? It creates a glutony for the comfort beauty brings. Fortunately, everyday becomes a feast. A carpal tongual convention.

April 8, 2006

We are pessimistic because life seems like a very bad, very screwed-up film. If you ask "What the hell is wrong with the projector?" and go up to the control room, you find it's empty. You are the projectionist, and you should have been up there all the time. ~~Colin Wilson

Authority as your interlocutor, am I too deep in her realm? When project managers are made line managers, the experiences endured dictate the translation. Danny De Vito intimidator vs. concern for the people. I wanted my interlocutor to have a favorable voice to his direct report (not pleasant, if not favorable). Pricks deliver ever so often, hence their presence. But when projects transform into long term they make their own heritage. The law makes the real one. Takes good people in it for the long term. Hence, concern for those people. The real life equivalent is the bias towards being around people who take care of their realms within their own family. I remember the Keep it under your own roof talk. I believe in it. We all get to decide how much roof coverage we need. I like the multi-tiered approach to roof design. At the crest is coalescence at its finest. Her captaincy barely reveals her textured capacities - nary a glimpse of her ability to accomplish. I get to stroke her cheek and fill my empty spots with vintage her. 2Ps are prevailing over puppet, pauper, pirate, poet, pawn & a king party. Kleven takes care of one P and I get the other.

April 6, 2006

There is a boundary to men's passions when they act from feelings; but none when they are under the influence of imagination." ~~Edmund Burke

Coalescing with my crackerjack co-conspirator in love. Sometimes I spew information overload explaining information overload. And there's that "don't get out much, do ya?" syndrome of late. These are minor tweaks compared to enduring the business acumen of Nonna D' Slamdunk . Finding the glow entails clicking glasses on the couch and making weekends count, knowing how fleeting the nights are, how draining commerce can be. Me & Bonnie CC know freedom's more than nothing else to lose and united we're rounding the bend with HoE in '07 right down the stretch.

April 5, 2006

Take pleasure in your dreams; relish your principles and drape your purest feelings on the heart of a precious lover. ~~Giotto di Bondone

The things I want for her are just like the ands between the beats. They're not written in the lines and spaces but they're written here. She has the intelligence, the tender feelings and clear, unfearful visions to thrive in the now. Pointing out what's already been pointed out is like restating the obvious.........redux, all over again. I'm entranced by the cushions inside her that took her through all the pain and turbulence, retrofitting mine to resemble hers (can't keep relying on tears for the release). Had them yesterday morning following the peek inside someone who loves someone I love. Overwhelmed by tears started when I bought my Grandmom a bracelet with the mustard seed amulet and she cried reading the verse. The big guy release, available only in non-public, makes for longer lasting dorphs and make the most sensational interludes. Sweet, sweet somethings from the solar sweet seora who loves just being herself and is so loved because of that.

April 4, 2006

Youth fades; love droops, the leaves of friendship fall; A mother's secret hope outlives them all. ~~Oliver Wendell Holmes

Already started yesterday with the thought of kids early exposure to things Heavy. Taking in more than you can handle as a kid prepares you for processing truth via a full spectrum of information overload. You just know when you were little, you couldn't handle the things that made you afraid and that influences somewhat the direction our choices go now. If we decide to not choose the option that takes us away from our imagined self (scared or otherwise), we are being true to our self and the outcome will be affected by hopefully better choices. It's the choices that kids make for satisfying their curiousity (good) that should make us deal with them as they see the world, not just by diversion.

April 3, 2006

The test of the morality of a society is what it does for its children. ~~Dietrich Bonhoeffer

Unconstrained emotions in public - a symptom or a breakthrough? The thing is, whistling is a sign of duress, a sign of elimination, a sign of passion........end of list. Common sense says keep your breakthrough crap there behind bathroom doors and that's today's lesson. Gwyneth said you can't accept you're not nuts if you're talking about being nuts if: the you who is saying that happens to be nuts. It's common to see people talking to themselves in public, which used to be a symptom until earpiece telephones became reality. Part of the taming includes reining in. My usual toggle switch from major to minor took several attempts, that's all. Watching the red head bass player space with the rhythm was infectious. More effort required on forestall the decline. So much respect for her common sense to dwell on the probabilities - but the surge felt great! Mr. Sun gets featured today. Another day to reflect on the influence of the CC. For tomorrow, the 'Net takes all that we've learned about the Earth and puts it in the hands of kids who don't yet know why Mommy________s. We tell them they have to wait until they're developed suffiently to handle the heavy messages about civilized living. Then we wonder why they proceed anyway. The elders in the tribe were ascribed with this feature because they were thought to be the only ones capable of doling out the wisdom.

March 31, 2006

I didn't want to work. It was as simple as that. I distrusted work, disliked it. I thought it was a very bad thing that the human race had unfortunately invented for itself. ~~Agatha Christie

Today we're doing word association: Lazy = worthless = assumption = dimensional = top honors = opportunistic = lovestruck = immortal = ineffable ultimate = NIRVANA . You can ruin Big Shot by worrying about falling out and you can ruin ber-dorph by dwelling on the down side of lazy. Self-preservation leads to love preservation with the help of who you love. It's what makes exceptions (acceptions ? ? ) for family behavior. It is life sustaining and is the best use of lazy time. On Time requires forestalling the decline and love preservation is the reward for taking care of that.

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Gihugeous gratitude to the CC - even bigger affection to her.

March 30, 2006

History has to move in a certain direction, even if it has to be pushed that way by neurotics. ~~George Orwell

Before total convergence, she had demons to deal with that were out of context with mine at the same age AND then completely reversed each other in marriages. She has much more success than I in fighting demons, something so much more apparent in recent days (The 2Ps Era . . and the return to the dirt path). She almost succumbed again pre-nitenite. I'm getting the messages - the coyote and the mongrel fought different demons as pups and opposite ones in matrimony. She now fights disintegration of the clutter and he embraces the light as caretaker harlequin of the soul. The fight is background now with pure post-reformer performances as a preview of Paradiso In Terra '07. The sleep is so much more solidly centered, even after a film about massacre, maybe because I lost the stress of wondering if she's dozing off wanting unnecessarily (or maybe the dirt from the path is intensifying).Regardless, what a way to begin the revitilization.

Best of everything.

March 29, 2006

The defining function of the artist is to cherish consciousness. ~~Max Eastman

What makes us do what we do? We already know a good part of the answer but it never stops being amazing when it happens as you wished for it. Animal magnetism. Doin' dirt path stuff. Making the dreams that follow unspectacular. Making the sleep that endures revitalizing. The change in the formula followed the pledge to never stop finding her. Things do unhappen even when when know not why. To make them happen again, rinse and repeat again. Today's already a profusion of memory foam eye/hand/lips as performed in perfect harmony.

March 28, 2006

If we had a keen vision of all that is ordinary in human life, it would be like hearing the grass grow or the squirrel's heart beat, and we should die of that roar which is the other side of silence. ~~George Eliot

It's not always about profundity. The stories in the jets last weekend included some indelible recollections of the drunken yoots period, drunk in the workplace. Accepting that 20s males w/ alcohol in a co-ed setting = testero-antics , and thus regrettable groping but ero-delicious

breaks from the business goin' on. Unthinkable now, farcical even in today's milieu (as in social setting of a mental patient). It's not been fun to get drunk in this century and much of the last one, not just from a practical point but from the bane of impairment. Drunk has been replaced by dorphed as the the euphoria of choice and she's as shameless as I, preferring 2Ps at the moment. I am immobilized by her brief touch, flummoxed by her passion and conked by her crescendos. She picked the right guy to squirrel away with.

March 27, 2006

Great talents are the most lovely and often the most dangerous fruits on the tree of humanity. They hang upon the most slender twigs that are easily snapped off. ~~ Carl Jung

Hard to feel bad about anybody in love. If accented by that feeling, no matter when and with whom you find it, gotta feel good. Love, now, not that symbiotic crap w/benefits. To feel incomplete love prepares you for the jouney to find complete. One sign is where the anger takes you. It is natural to feel anger as it is to feel love. Success comes from what you do with the anger, action that speeds the take over by love. When love is incomplete, there was a decidedly hateful feeling when she enflamed my anger. When love is complete, the anger is from losing patience and knowing that makes you realize how vapid your disturbance has become. Neither wants to transfer the anger to an argument, so it gets turned back into the fairies and angels' dust laden zone of love. There the corroboration is the lingering worship of her performer from the reformer masterpiece from last week. O give me a home where the dirt path is esteemed.....Live and let live.

March 25, 2006

A memory is anything that happens and does not completely unhappen. The result is some trace which is left. The trace may last for a long time or it may last only for a short time. Information that comes into the brain leaves a trace in the altered behaviour of the nerve cells that form the memory surface ~~Edward de Bono

Finding the appreciation point happens before even thinking about what you're going to do. When you're engaged with that one person who really expects nothing and gets everything thru prayer, the appreciation is having someone like that in your life. But enough about that - I am so worthy, CC - thank you for honoring my weekend request at the end of the week before the weekend even clicked in yet. She was uncontained, carnivorus, a seismic harvest. The reptilian dirt path was trampled last night and I'm the dormer jutting from the performer from the reformer. A magic carpet ride a galaxy away from the innocent brush across the lips while removing a towel. Oh, that visceral arch..

March 24, 2006

There are some women who should barely be spoken to; they should only be caressed. ~~Edgar Degas

Effusively shaped gratitude this morning to the CC - her response is convincing me she is the designer of this pageant and she's perfectly equipped for the demands of designing. Her handiwork is not wasted on plasticine and her legacy lives within me on the dirt path, back to cellar when it all began. The calling for the discernability of my visions was fathered on that floor, an acuity encouraged by craptacular eyesight and an orientation definitely perineal. Is that easy love? or a portrait worthy of her signature? Whatever, it's all in the manner of my makeup of all happy - all the time. She wows me.

March 23, 2006

The worst guilt is to accept an unearned guilt. ~~Ayn Rand

Mandibular proximations. Possible break-throughs like reptillian lobes and alpha-male pheremones? It's somwhere within Broca's area that the reason for fascination with mandibular proximations is explained. I'm sure of this because of the convergence of anteriors. Using introspection sure beats metal stamping areas that can be cross-matched (easy to remember: stud-to-ring). Different pleasure centers respond differently per stimulator. It's better when you have interchangeable pleasure centers. You Can't Always Get Stimulator #1 - Relish the Stimulator You Got. Hands on in the workplace means such a different placement than it does in

G u p p.

March 22, 2006

A damsel with a dulcimer In a vision once I saw: It was an Abyssinian maid, And on her dulcimer she played, Singing of Mount Abora. Could I revive within me Her symphony and song, To such a deep delight 'twould win me, That with music loud and long, ~~Samuel Coleridge

The On Message lesson is that context counts as much as the content. That's why an executive effew doesn't lose the base who put it in the context of who was being effewed. Someone considered an AHole? Perfectly OK to effew them. But staying On Message sometimes reveals predictablity which can be formidably used against you. Crafting pleasing prose can be argued as a beacon into your centered point. Dreamy prose = stabilty sufficient to produce high level thinking. But Coleridge wrote stoned on opium and the words are remembered in the 21. So hereafter, my 3sum will reflect my level of convergence that day. That is the context. So today's context is shown HOW in the art above? Homage to Elvis - top is church - early gospel, center is iconic yoot, bottom is tribute to the age he succombed (reading glasses). And her Mount Abora swallowed my soul from the non-Strip view of her at the Rio, adjacent now but foldering so much more infusion. OBaby OBaby.

March 21, 2006

By the end, everybody had a label -- pig, liberal, radical, revolutionary ... If you had everything but a gun, you were a radical but not a revolutionary. ~~Jerry Rubin

It's a good sign when the tiramisu or gelato choice is the toughest decision of the morning. No one gets off that easily, but it's right to aspire to it. The cure for being labeled as a titist, as in Sharon Stone as a vaginist, is to remember that guys can get tits now, so maybe write something good so the titist becomes an author. Or a bridge builder. So another good thing about signs is that they get you to the good side of catagories which folder your references. The bad side of catagories is when you get placed in the wrong one by someone else of importance. So I'll live with T I T I S T as long as I live, but If I Try Real Hard, I just might get it lowered in my attribute chain. Listed way below:

Man who knew about people. Man who found his dream in the face of the most beautiful desert flower in the cornucopia.

March 20, 2006

Cyberspace: A consensual hallucination experienced daily by billions of legitimate operators, in every nation. ~~William Gibson

There is certainly nothing which resembles the real thing....Baby. Spontaneous combustion. Goin' where the day/nite leads. Getting much help from the fading presence of Mad Magazine which I neglected to mention, promoted "What? Me Worry?". Letting nature prevail goes way back to some comment made by a Biblical scribe, but is so-o gratifying. Her pleasure moves are constrained by only those which she believes to be Not do's because she'd rather do something else, NOT because she believes it's something I don't want her to do. And verse chorus. If she's HALF as dorphed as I am today, she's a happy girl.

March 16, 2006

A book is like a man - clever and dull, brave and cowardly, beautiful and ugly. For every flowering thought there will be a page like a wet and mangy mongrel, and for every looping flight a tap on the wing and a reminder that wax cannot hold the feathers firm too near the sun. ~~John Steinbeck

Are virtual experiences just a cheap knock-off or programs for cerebral cortex? If you'd rather do a 360 degree pan w/ your monitor than to walk from the parking lot to the overlook on the north bank of the Grand Canyon, then answer cheap OR exercise? Maybe because visualization first came to me with that name from a sports psychologist proving you can picture yourself burning a backhand, you'll develop that shot (not true..). But it does provide answers to some of the "what ifs?" about how to handle situations that could happen any minute. It employs images of reality quality as cultivated over the years by creating incredible fantasies. So that makes my ultimate dream exude expectations of heretofore beauty, doesn't it? Except that putting this here is evidence I am already living my ultimate dream with her. She's captured my capacity for adoration, more than a chocolate lab pup and a blackberry milkshake, too. To be with her is inside the best scene from the best movie, all the time. To be one with her...to be there during her self-discovery...to be activated by prolonged touch...sheer adulation.

March 15, 2006

May you remember to say "I Love You" at least once a day to your spouse, your child, your parent; but not to your secretary, your nurse, your masseuse, your hairdresser or your tennis instructor. ~~Irish Prayer

Religion is a return, a repeat, a retreat to something, as revile is to vile again and regurgitate is to redo that gurguration thing. So what's a ligion? And how do you do it again if you're into religion? Another prominent concentric point these two lovers share is they we both experienced being surrounded with corporate-think . We both know the price it takes in our spiritual sanctuary (that's why so many corporate leaders find their sanctuary in church). We both know the importance of finding sanctuary in each other and we both routinely focus on that. It provides the fascination from the soul that we both nurture, embrace and celebrate. Like

Felicity's Thunderbolts

you always succeed in apportioning the energy spent on that fascination. That's by design from the architects out there in the CC. You never want to run out of energy for nurturing. The D's have it. Love unit.

March 14, 2006, baby

I wash my hands of those who imagine chattering to be knowledge, silence to be ignorance, and affection to be art. ~~Kahlil Gibran

The turning of the tide signals another deflection and so does the digital display of 2:47. Yes, the groundhog day aspect is unavoidable, but not so much a re-do, rather, another gift. When all those dues paying days are replaced by cornucopia, Coppola and copacetic contemplation, you want another and another... The emphasis on the glow in the homestead makes the other place very poop, where oscillation is more prominent than scintillation but that's OK. The kit bag's packed and Thy pouting breasts, like kettle-drums of brass beat everlasting loud alarms of joy, As bright as brass they are, and oh! as hard thanks, Fielding

Saying the truth no matter what choice of words picked to describe it is better than taking it for granite (or quartz, even...). Still picturing that grin from this morning...

March 13, 2006

Take away paradox from the thinker and you have a professor. ~~S�ren Kierkegaard

When the exact opposite is the ultimate truth (meaning the stated position is exactly wrong), it takes you by surprise. The example I had was erased by the fumes of disinfectant but it came after breathing deeply from the good news following a couple of wake-up calls. Those women born in the 30s have some resilience. And in the 50s, some gifted angels came to the planet with a fate to be loved effusively. OK night ventures, no HO and plenty of visions of Heaven on Earth Oh Seven. She's worrying less, thanks to the safe harbor of cherished nieces and signs she believes she can get worry-free. No

Melzi in her future.

March 10, 2006

Abstract Art: A product of the untalented, sold by the unprincipled to the utterly bewildered. ~~Albert Camus

Steamy Uma got the first nod for the deliciousness that followed, but it's really steamy her. My desire appears every single day in sometimes different get ups, could it be the letting go that's improving her reception? The tangible benefactor for March lion winds is being unable to deny the force of the desire and that only happens when we both lock onto the passion. My expectations of the sundown part of our tour are stratospheric and lately, surpassed by her presence and connection. My appreciation envelops it all, something I must ensure she's getting in overflowing roomfuls. That appreciation includes CC's influences, especially the tip on the root chakra - oh, such attention...

March 9, 2006

Now everything changed. My childhood world was breaking apart around me. My parents eyed me with a certain embarrassment. My sisters had become strangers to me. A disenchantment falsified and blunted my usual feelings and joys: the garden lacked fragrance, the woods held no attraction for me, the world stood around me like a clearance sale of last year's secondhand goods, insipid, all its charm gone. Books were so much paper, music a grating noise. That is the way leaves fall around a tree in autumn, a tree unaware of the rain running down its sides, of the sun or the frost, and of life gradually retreating inward. The tree does not die. It waits. ~~Hermann Hesse

Where do the people live who're wookin pour muv in all the wrong places? Smithereens, where you get smashed to? Down the street? One thing about love that probably looks like making a big deal about basic features, just happens to be being thrilled that she's so good as a leader taking on team efforts and she's just like me about preferring the one on one with the one you idolize. My past take on one-on-oners was they stink at synchronizing working towards the same goal, but both she and I share that experience of implementation AND she leads by example, a divine art. But when the candles burn long, she and I are locked in the magical mystery tour we once just heard about and now mainstream it. The fascination is uninterrupted and ever more beguiling. We confess our devotion to charming each other and being charmed. And we are still just in dress rehearsal for Heaven on Earth Oh Seven.

March 8, 2006

It is possible to provide security against other ills, but as far as death is concerned, we men live in a city without walls." ~~Epicurus

Keeping a close watch on the back. Illusions of bargaining with the devil focus me on any sign of spellbound. Devils sometimes have the Margaret Hamilton theme song and wounded animals sometimes eat their young. No effort, though - 24/7,365 no call necessary. Got it covered PeezNcees. She detects some enthusiasm - great sign. Think I'll lay off the fire-belly references, following last night's false labor experience (no breaking of water, tho'). Sympathy pains possibly?

Probably just food combo du jour. Can't stop thinking about her bed ride manner...

March 7, 2006

The house of my body has spoken often as you rebuild me like blocks, and promise to come visit when I'm finally adjusted on safe land, and am livable, joist to joist with storm windows and screens ... ~~Anne Sexton

Caring for the big stuff always checks your security gates. There are places where living in fear is the demise of weak hearts (not weak as opposed to cajones). We are what we cannot discard, not the pizza last eaten. Today's Ejaculata came from a half container of Campbell's Golden Butternut Squash soup, add asparagus chunks saute�d in evoo along with tomato chunks and a palm full of cut basil and fresh pepper. Hinney-kicker. Back to the big stuff - starting down a new path where the steps get shorter and slower but a security check is needed frequently from now on. Truth is our weapon and our flavoring de lifetime. Her bedside manner should be DVD'd as should her bed ride manner. Loving almost decadent, but, oh so divine.

March 6, 2006

We are all cups, constantly and quietly being filled. The trick is, knowing how to tip ourselves over and let the beautiful stuff out. ~~Ray Bradbury

The tune is yet to be written but the symphony plays within, all the time. The single guitar string opens the opus with a familiar melody even when it's the first time it's ever been played. She represents all that is pure and easy to please. The beat with many ands begins the rhythmic undercurrent, like the lifepulse that feeds us together. The chorus is the hook where the deliberate exchange of love messages repeats in an endless loop of confessions to dulcify the soul. There is no crescendo, just a series of high notes that just happen during the life portion where the two of us connect and stay there. Her sweet is one of so many cards, but it keeps me in the game. A great song too dear to stay unwritten.

March 3, 2006

They call it PMS because MadCow Disease was already taken~~Anon

Staying out of the murky depths probably gave birth to Take the High Road. Use only your best moves approaching the finish line may be the basis for Resist the Temptation to Fix logic. The convergence of the two occurs somewhere between yesterday's O only makes you want another one S O O N ! and play it safe with filtered distractions until the last picture show. I vote for the latter but then, they're my words. And I believe taking the high road to the finish line is the best path - just not the high road bundled with some self-initiated project with lotsa deliverables. Instead, become Retention-proof and trust that the real reward only happens when your soliloquy hits that high note. Acting. Judi-like delivery.

March 2, 2006

Why should man expect his prayer for mercy to be heard by What is above him when he shows no mercy to what is under him? ~~Pierre Troubetzkoy

Keeping the place where you can say anything or do anything is our mission. That's because it's a place where the love and respect ensures there'll never be a true meltdown, so you just know the comment or request is from the one whose love for you is without edges. The other place is so tainted just like the unthinkable just outside the gate. Acknowledging that it all exists does not let it in here where space is reserved for the clicking of the glasses, the goof ball antics and the affection so sweet, it caresses opposed to stresses. I get days free from public, this is where she strips away the public.

March First MMVI

War is, at first, the hope that one will be better off; next, the expectation that the other fellow will be worse off; then, the satisfaction that he isn't any better off; and, finally, the surprise at everyone's being worse off." ~~Karl Kraus

You and you alone rebooted my manaPee Sunday. Everyday I search for indicators as to my functionality and since Sunday, I'm Robert Kincaid more than ever. Love offered with such passion is like being turned upside down when your ears are fewked. The adjustment is life providing. Gazes into your eyes when you are in that zone are Rio incarnations, framing the feelings with a shelf life that says eternal. My searches never cross paths with doubt but loving like Sunday's is the Rosemary's, replete with maytag. Couldn't handle any finer.

February 28, 2006

Where there is great love, there are always wishes. ~~Willa Cather

Bigger = better. The grander the scale, the more significant the response becomes........to a point. If you're around chocolate all day, the aroma of heated garlic is catalytic. So if big becomes craptacular because of omnipresence, maybe small, intricate slices = roast garlic. I am mired in bigger = worse. Probably an overachiever's oasis. No, this is not a residue from Hy Tarnower's unit or even the extravaganza that followed. Maybe it's just a reminder that actualization also features PILT forever.

February 27, 2006

The soul would have no rainbow if the eyes had no tears. ~~American Indian Proverb, Minquass

Life over the rainbow gets better and better. Said clearly and loud - Jets can't compete with her hands. Chakra WIDE open, ma'am. Pleasure center reports 10+ on the Pickedher Scale. Celebrity phobia unintended here, but just had a date with an angel and she let reveal her identity as the world's peerless lover. No moments out there on the gangplank with fading background, just pure pleasure served up with mutual endorphin release - stupendous. Ain't what ya do or how you do it, it's what comes with it and how that makes me feel. Oh, give me a home....

February 26, 2006

Slippery bunch, angels, hiding their nasty little sins behind curtsies and compliments, Bibles and badges. ~~Jean Harris

Shana Alexander was writing about the Scarsdale Diet doc's oversized unit when she was doing Point/Counterpoint on 60 Minures while writing Very Much a Lady. Annette Bening's arm swing during the foreplay from the consumation scene vastly proportioned the length, leaving the girth to your imagination. What point here? One day's wish to the CC is about to be actualized and no sublimation is necessary as portrayed in the above scene. Kinda makes the inspiration here root chakra-centric. More tomorrow if it has an opening effect.

February 25, 2006

Passing the time, everything fine. Passing the time, wine and time rhyme. Passing the time. ~~Cream

Vigilante justice is the trompe l'oeil of post-911 vindication. There's no time for candy l'oeil unless the other stuff's taken care of. Today marks the anniversary of __________ and Phillip Morris is still running Don't Smoke ads on TV. Is there a connection? Probably, but this message stays here based on lack of inspiration today. The gelato made us smile and for lovers, it's all gravy.

February 25, 2006

Memory is corrupted and ruined by a crowd of "memories". If I am going to have a true memory, there are a thousand things that must first be forgotten. Memory is not fully itself when it reaches only into the past. A memory that is not alive to the present does not "remember" the here and now, does not "remember" its true identity, is not memory at all. He who remembers nothing but facts and past events, and is never brought back into the present, is a victim of amnesia. ~~Thomas Merton

Memory like a sponge leaves me with rinse water floating with the best moments since V-J Day. It makes your jaw drop when the words to a grade school song come out verbatim but what's going through your mind when some fugly from history gets thrown in? The sponge is not like a magnet, picking up only cherished metal and leaving the trash lie. So the sweet words coming from a beat-up radio only are worthy when they're singling out the beauty to ponder and jump start the romance-o-meter. This assumes the words reflect what's going on in the flesh and not just flowery sentiments. Living in love is the greatest security possible, giving bounty everyday knowing tomorrow is a chance to do it one better. No NLRB necessary in the zone, babe.

February 23, 2006

Reverie is not a mind vacuum. It is rather the gift of an hour which knows the plenitude of the soul. ~~Gaston Bachelard

I drove all night just to be with you just pitches Chryslers - I drove three days just to spend a lifetime with you. There's never been a second when I looked back wondering what if I stayed. What I do think about repeatedly is what if I hadn't come to you or what if you wouldn't have me? The road ended when I found you, replaced by a flying carpet of wild flowers, hovering over the desert with you draped around me. The flight's booked thru eternity and you & I have the only tickets. There's always a place where the light awakens the day then throughout the day until you return once more for the feature presentation. You coulda done better...but not much.

February 23, 2006

Life without thankfulness is devoid of love and passion. Hope without thankfulness is lacking in fine perception. Faith without thankfulness lacks strength and fortitude. Every virtue divorced from thankfulness is maimed and limps along the spiritual road. ~~John Henry Jowett

Mary Ball Washington gave birth 334 years ago to the guy who made it possible for me to be here today. The General survived the war then conquered the power grabbers to make it possible to pursue happiness as a birthright. Happy fingers are building these words and happy hearts are sustaining life here, knowing loving eyes have our backs covered. She's content to answer questions about what do I do well with "He's good at sealing zip-top bags". She leads like George did, by example and getting high grade results. My love and adoration of her, savor the reality that I'm the one who's treated by her brilliance - her understanding of what works and the ways to make that happen. We are void of all rage despite its presence everywhere. And she takes just like a little girl.

February 21, 2006

I'm grateful for the opportunity to live on this beautiful and astonishing planet Earth. In the morning, I wake up with a sense of gratitude. ~~Earl Nightingale

Funny thing happened on the way to today - I spent three days shoulder deep in the tomorrows. Our best friend 'Cuzz rebounded and the atmosphere inside the club house was acoustically revealing. The CC was tuned in and Judi's choice of dressing under the covers had both of our heads affirming. Coasting seems to be the answer of choice today. May be a mode used more often from here.

February 18, 2006

While I know that the beautiful, the spiritual and the sublime are suspect today, I have begun to stop resisting the constant urge to deny that beauty has a valid right to exist in contemporary art. ~~Ian Hornak

Why limit beauty to art? Sri Chimoy says" In ugliness there is beauty, in imperfection there is beauty, in everything that exists in God�s universe there is beauty" (my Dad's joke that paraphrased this said "everything is made from God, therefor everything has a purpose" to which a soldier stationed in the South Pacific replied "except tits on a nun, balls on a priest and these goddamn flies"). I like not justifying ugly, as in car chases, shoot 'em ups, and all the other scum filth fugly crap that oozes freely in the world. I like spending as much time surrounded by the beauty that also abounds and is so much more nurturing. I was headed for Canada last night so I'm getting the wish out next to keep me in the homeland when the melatonin's been secreted after twilight.

February 17, 2006

Be careful what you pretend to be because you are what you pretend to be. ~~Kurt Vonnegut

The master cautions that sequencing the elements to end up in a realm where romance endures, involves pretending. Just like the effect from medicines that control serotonins, you need to feel the presence of love first for romance to flourish. Lust confuses, caring distorts, craving obsesses, but love controls when it arrives and romance is the sustainer. So pretending here is not feigning love nor acting romantic. It is clearing the mind from melting ice caps, human bomb wearers, evaporating values and a thousand other realities, just to thrill from the sound of her sipping coffee next to me. If maturity is just concern for others, it evolved from all those occasions along the way where boners and pounding in the chest signalled there's something to this romance thing. My anthem for lovers is almost ready for breakout.

February 16, 2006

Girl: I think my mom's a virgin. ~~4 train

Things that made little or no sense before have new meaning now. Like being so much a person I used to laugh at back then. I'm funny, but the laughable part is the distain within me for the anti-borgeoise crap, formerly endearing. The Torino melodramas are just frightful. But this one I like: Two babes are talking at a hot dog stand. One asked the other if the veggie dogs were as icky as regular hot dogs and the other said, "I don't know but I'd rather eat an icky stamen from a plant than an icky anus from a pig". Kinda sums up enculturation in the MMs for me. All eyes are on the Prezday weekend...love you long time.

February 15, 2006

Everyone has a talent. What is rare is the courage to nurture it in solitude and to follow the talent to the dark places where it leads." ~~Erica Jong

Distinguishing input has been proven to be maybe how our filters do it when stress confronts us. So maybe the help I've been receiving is helping me with using that system to distinguish mo' better. This could be a stressful week but rather it's been transcendent. The need for physical exertion is still present but the declined essential parts need CC affirmations PLUS PPCC interventions. She rode Cupid's wings to the best V'Day dinner last night I can recall ever having. Good things happen to good people from good people. I'm ripe for some enhanced studio-time, nook time moments today starting here: Never knitted, so my take on the endorphins it can produce surmises it parallels the feeling of well being found here. So it's not the processes that make up the actions (photoshop, quotes, stream-of-consciousness words) but the feeling of well being it hosts. Back in the hole yesterday appeased by Mel singing My Funny Valentine and after the shower, she lavished fineness on me and soothed me to sleep. What a day of love!

February 13, 2006

Pain and foolishness lead to great bliss and complete knowledge, for Eternal Wisdom created nothing under the sun in vain." ~~Kahlil Gibran

Going sub-ground level reminds me of all the time spent in the cellar with an earthen floor. My connection there with the soil carpet may have involuntarily fed me the guidance (Dad's Bali film) that is now bordering on High definition level reception. Sleeping on the ground outside in a tent was thrilling on the lawn, not so much in a bivouac - character building, maybe, but definitely now in BD catagory. Pleasing her is locked into the top spot. Sometimes using the upper torso and traveling with legs is the right pleasure. And I AM #1, pic.

February 12, 2006

Every artist dips his brush in his own soul, and paints his own nature into his pictures." ~~Henry Ward Beecher

The columns on the page group the meaning within like a line of thumbnails, begging to be picked like a caged dog in the pound pleading at you for freedom. The hesitation eminates from the same filter in mind's ionizer - BD (been done...there, that). Staying receptive to the mind of the universe demands avoidance of distractions, or at least the ability to pass on acting on the alluring familiarity when BDs beckon. Unlike the dirt path of encounters with strange, jeweled petals line the moonbeams guiding you to new awareness, revitalizing those pleasure centers and making it another day of bounty. It has been a long road to here and there's a long road ahead.

February 9, 2006